season of bright sadness

In my last post, I talked about my feelings around Lent and how I wanted to study it during this season.  I don't really know that I'm "giving something up", but more I want it to be a season of study, fasting and preparation.  I don't want to just think about Lent as something I "do" or don't do. I've spent some time this week looking around for a study to help me focus.  I found a great Lent study here.  I know it's a little late, but we're starting this weekend. 

I want to know the "season of bright sadness", and God's going to be the one who teaches me the heavy, hard to swallow, let me humble you continually stuff..I want my heart to be ready to receive everything He chooses to teach me.  I want to face my humanity this season and learn things that will shape my faith and life.  I want to make it not about me.

Taken from the study site:

Before Christ, the world called out to God (in the words of David, King of Israel),

"How long, O Lord? Will you be angry forever? Will your jealous wrath burn like fire? " (Psalm 79.5)

Easter is the once-for-all-time answer to this question. Jesus took our place on the cross to appease God's righteous anger. He went alone to be punished: separated from God and deserted by his friends.

I know that my heart needs to prepare and be taught the complete truth of this message, of what Easter really is and should be to the believer, to me...that Jesus's choice is the foundation for for my faith, hope, and grace. Most of all, I want to praise God, because I didn't deserve His son, and never will. NOTHING I could ever do would earn this right, this blessing of being chosen as a child covered forever in His grace.